Home Again, Home Again, Jiggety Jig

Ah. Back to the beginning. Here I am again. Months later. 225 pounds. Snacking at night. Not exercising. Embarrassed to go out in clothes, much less a bathing suit. Hoping for a miracle. Waiting for the "aha" moment. Squandering the time I have on this planet to enjoy my life. There has to be a better way. I am looking...I have to find it.